feeling unnormal

Im alot better now I dont care wjonis watching but I was of the scale even the hospital coildnt record what my sugars were

bit late to the party but incase anyone else is reading over this here is my two cents.

When I was diagnosed I felt like I was defective and it was something to be ashamed of, I didn't want to eat out or have anyone see me taking a blood glucose reading let alone a shot. When I did go to eat out some months later I went to a restaurant run by a family friend largely because it meant I could use their office to take the shot.

As has been said the longer you have had it the more you get used to it and the less you care. It's something a lot of people don't really understand so they see you taking a shot and they wonder if your doing drugs. My way of dealing with it is now rather than trying to shy away and be embarrassed about it I try to be as open as I can. I do try to be discrete but I won't suspiciously slink away to a secluded corner. Then every so often I'll make a bit of a show of it, for example I was in the comedy store a while back, the show had ended & most people were leaving. It's a very narrow exit and my date had decided to use the toilet while the crowds cleared. I then realised I'd not taken a shot for the meal I'd had before the show so I preped a shot up. I saw some of the people in the crowd giving me odd looks but rather than hide away I carried on and as I started to inject the insulin allowed this euphoric look to appear on my face and then gave them the old "crazy eyes" smile

You do have off days though and sometimes it may not even be diabetes that is the reason. You may be upset with a loved one, work may be getting you down or what ever else but then you have to go take a shot and it will be the straw that breaks the camels back and an easy one to vent on because there is no fix, there is no reason it's just something you have to manage. But by getting upset about that is saves you having to deal with the other things that are bothering you that maybe you can fix but just don't feel like dealing with.

I dont care now because at the end of the day thatbisnkeeping me alive so if people wont to be narrow minded then let them after going into a coma andnmy parents being told to ring faimlynand freinds to come up and say their last goodbyes was a reall eye opener im me I think diabitse has made me the person I am todaynive had it since I was 5 yearsnold andnim now 19 going to be 20 in october asni said at the end of the daynim taking my insulin to keep me alive so if you dont like it dontnlook why shouldni hide away if people wont to be so dam rude