Losing Control

I feel very lost and out of control I put everyone elses needs before my own and as a result this impacts my usual pretty good control. I am 33 and was diagnosed with diabetes when I was 13/14 years old so thats 19/20 years ago. I have had a daughter five years ago and a temporary diabetic doctor doubted that another pregnancy would be a good idea due to a very slightly leaking kidney now my health care team who I have known and trusted and took great care of me during my first pregnancy are saying yes there are risk but if I have good control then everything "Should" be fine! I got the green light to start trying as my HbA1c was under 7% but Polysistic Ovaries kicked in and cause me to have fertility issues, I am now seeing this as a sign and after speaking to a number of people some say go for it and some say that I should think about the risks "is it worth it". I don't think I have ever been this lost ever and which direction to take.

Due to my uncertainty I have given up on myself, gained weight, lost control with my usual BG routine and I just feel that I can't take anymore. I think all I need is a day to get my head on track but that day is always put off for the next and next and I just want someone to motivate me to get up off my bum and get healthy again. I don't mind REALLY i don't if the doctor said look Vicky it really looks like if you were to have another pregnancy that you are at very high risk therefore we wouldn't recommend it but I have mixed messages and I really don't know what to do. I know Diabetes is not an exact science but I don't know what i'm doing.

Hi Vicky,

So very sorry to read your post. I completely understand the "putting everyone elses needs before my own" part. I completed DAFNE last week but before then I'd completely given up on ever being in control of my diabetes as everything else (kids/work/home) came first. It got to the point where I was forgetting to take insulin for an entire day at a time. Because of this I couldn't function properly and looked like a shell of my former self. A week on I am feeling and looking better. I feel more positive and can start to bring some order to my life for the first time in ages...anyhoo...what I'm saying (sort of!) is you should maybe take time to focus on yourself and to make yourself feel well again and then in turn you'll be able to takle the issue of pregnancy.

I was pregnant with twins in 2006 (HBA1C of around 8%) and the doctors sat me down and asked if I was aware of the risks of what a pregnancy could do to me and asked if I wanted to proceed with it. Needless to say they and I were fine. I guess you need to be in posession of all the facts to make an informed decision but at the end of the day it's a decision for you. Is there any other health care provider you could speak to about your concerns?

I really hope you get the answers you are looking for.

Jane